For the last couple of months, I have been in transition; an inner transition that I find challenging to describe. There is an absence of the contentment I once had and a feeling of uneasiness that isn’t dramatic or too concerning, simply a sense that it’s time to make some changes in my life. These changes are mostly minor. I don’t think I need a life overhaul. Just a few tweaks here and there.
Today is July 1st and marks the beginning of the last half of 2012. I think it’s an ideal time to create a list of resolutions. Resolutions that I believe will help me through this, uh, interesting stage in my life.
I have written out each resolution and after it, in italics, my plan for that resolution.
Eleven things I would like to work on between now and the beginning of 2013 are:
1) Exercise. This one is always on my resolution list, always on my weekly and daily lists of things to do and always on my mind. Why a former personal trainer and former lover of exercise has such a hard time exercising regularly is a mystery to me. My goal each week is to exercise four days a week for a minimum of 30 minutes of cardio plus weight bearing exercises. Tori has agreed to go for walk/runs with me in our local park twice a week. The rest is up to me.
2) See friends more often. Take the first step and invite friends out. Get dates on the calendar. Ideally, I would like to spend time with two friends each week.
3) Read, read, read. I used to be a big reader until I started blogging. In fact, my very first post was a book review. Once I find a book I can’t get my face out of, I’m good. It’s finding that book that’s the hard part. I bought a new book last week that I read about online. Gone Girl is recommended by one of my favorite female celebrities, Gwyneth Paltrow, on her blog GOOP. So far, it’s a winner. By the way, book recommendations from my wonderful readers are encouraged.
4) Entertain in our home. Our old carpet and couches that double as the cat’s clawing post keep me from having anyone but family and very close friends over. And that’s just silly. I am starting slow with this one. One dinner party or barbecue per month minimum.
5) Get and keep the house decluttered and organized. I’m pretty sure this will be on my resolution list for the rest of my life. Clean up or clean out something each day. It can be as small as a single drawer or as big as the garage.
6) Have a weeknight date with my husband a couple times a month. Go see a movie, go out to dinner, go for an evening hike – just the two of us. I am already planning a date for this week. I’m thinking about taking him to see Magic Mike. It’s about firefighters, right?
7) Buy flowers for the house on a regular basis. Such an easy way to brighten up the house and my mood And this time of year, the choices are many and the prices are low. I bought these peonies for just $5.00 last week.
8) Find a way to like cooking again. I used to enjoy it…what happened? I am relying on Pinterest for this one. There are lots of great recipes I’ve pinned on my recipe board that make me somewhat excited to cook. Crossing fingers that this helps.
9) Stop being a chicken. I have fears of varying degrees of flying, elevators, heights, spiders and most enclosed places. I have already begun changing this one. On our recent trip, I successfully flew 12 hours each way without freaking out, rode elevators (some of them sketchy and small) and took gondolas and trams over cavernous mountains in the Alps. Now I just need to continue my fearless attitude. But I am pretty sure the spider fear will never go away.
10) Learn to always speak my truth, even when it’s hard. Often, I agree to do something I don’t genuinely want to do because I don’t want to hurt someone’s feelings or disappoint them. Need to simply stop doing that.
11) Lose the guilt. All day long that little voice in my head tells me what I should, could and ought to be doing. And when it’s not doing that, it’s telling me how lazy I am for not doing those things. Or how self-indulgent I am for enjoying myself in a fun activity. It’s positively exhausting! Re-read this book and start telling my inner voice to bugger off.
Do you have any half-year resolutions?