Monday morning started off well enough but I woke feeling fatigued and decided to skip bootcamp class. Instead, I dressed in my finest yoga outfit and headed out the door to see my senior friend, Anna. We had a lovely visit, as we always do.
On my way home I stopped by one of the thrift shops I like to frequent to see what they had. I found a few things and went to the counter to pay.
After our initial greetings to one another, the woman helping me with my transaction asked me how old I was. I find that off-putting but I answered politely anyway and told her I am 45.
“Darn!”, she exclaimed, “I was going to give you our Senior discount, but you have to be 55. Too bad!”
Yep. That’s what I was thinking, too bad.
I tried to tell myself it didn’t matter and I quickly realized that my most gorgeous and vibrant friends are either older than 55 or hovering around that number. But it really got to me. I can see me being mistaken for 48 or even 50, but 10 years older than I am? Wow.
I blew off all of my errands, returned home and uncharacteristically laid around and watched old movies on TCM. My reaction to what one person, one stranger, had said surprised me.
What I didn’t know at that time was I was coming down with something. Something painful. Pleurisy. Do you know it? I hope that you don’t because it’s awful.
Pleurisy is the inflammation of the walls of your lungs. The cause of my pleurisy is unknown but I think it has something to do with travel because the last time I got it was after a 3 week trip to Europe. There is no remedy but rest and time. All I can do is wait it out.
Until then, I have lots of time on my hands and lots of thoughts in my head. And I see an opportunity to look for the positive even though I feel lousy both physically and emotionally.
So here goes! These are the positives about my week:
~ My family, especially my husband, has been so wonderful to me by cooking, cleaning, going to the store and putting up with my complaining.
~ This isn’t a positive thing but I am trying to look at it in the most positive light possible. Our kitty, named “Kitty”, is not going to be with us much longer. He is about 15-years-old and has FIV. He was diagnosed with it in 2001 and was expected to live five more years at the maximum.
Although it is very sad to know that the end of Kitty’s life is near and we will miss him terribly, we are grateful that he lived as long as he has, that we have given him a good life and that he has given us so much love, affection and entertainment.
~ I spent three hours at the doctor’s on Wednesday. I had an EKG, chest X-ray, blood tests, and a thorough exam. I am enormously thankful that I have such good health care so that when I feel poorly, I can find out why. So many people don’t have that luxury.
~ Something good did come out of my thrift shop visit. I found this like-new suede clutch in a deep forest green shade for $5.00.
And a denim jacket from Sundance for $7.00 that fits perfectly and probably cost about $100+ new.
~ Confining myself to my home has allowed me some guilt-free lounging time. I have been watching old movies like Sunset Boulevard and Casablanca as well as catching up with my more modern loves, The Newsroom and The Killing. Are you watching a favorite series right now?
~ I also used my down time to create a Facebook page, managed by me and Jill, that’s all about How I Wear My. We will be featuring participants’ looks, outfit ideas, updates and information on themes, and more!
We also have an email address just for HIWM photo submissions and anything else HIWM related: [email protected]
At the start of each month, the Facebook cover photo shown above will change. It will always include photos of participants of HIWM.
If you’re on Facebook, come on over and “like” How I Wear My!
~ Above all else, I am happy to be alive and healthy. It stung being mistaken for being 10 years older, I cannot lie about that. But it was a good lesson for me: I am more than my looks. I am more than my age. And I am more than someone else’s evaluation of me.
If we rely on our looks to get us through life, we will surely grow to regret it. A kind heart, an educated and curious mind and a positive outlook are not only more important and rewarding qualities than the physical but they can last a lifetime, while physical attributes fade.